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yup, lebaran oh lebaran..never know when i can feel the truly ramadhan..always felt that's bad and where's the lailatul qadar...haiz...let i tell you..when idul fitri i went to my grandma and met with all of my family..happy and great. Then what's the problem ?? where's the feeling..hmm, my uncle droped and drove to hospital and then passed away. At that time what i cna do, waiting. I felt bad coz i suddenly remember with the entire of life. Many sin and mistake. Dunno when the truly ramadhan come to my heart. Maybe this is coz the IMAN.Yup, iman always fluctuation everytime if we don't protect, it will down and offer.Remember about the promise from ALLAH that death is certainty. Ah, afraid, only a good muslim always ready and miss with the death. why ? coz at that time we will meet our RABB..but, look at me, i don't have a brave and of course i can't face ALLAH with this way.. 
But, i don't want to say that i am bad. I wanna appreciate with everything allah gives for me. Faithfull for the blessing and always hug me even i tried to tun away form ALLAH's love. Thank ALLAH coz you never let me down, never break this live in my heart. I know ALLAH hold my hand, touch my shoulder to encourage me. ALLAH, you force me to be strong, you support me to be brave. I don't know what i have to say to expressed my feeling and greeting.